An Irrational Remedy

4:44pm: *sigh*
Not only did I have to drive all day for work, but when I get ready to go home, I find my car has a completely flat right front tire. Since my spare and all my tire changing equipment was stolen and we have not been able to replace it yet, I'm stuck for a bit.

There are just some days.

Even so, I will bless the name of the Lord. It's a beautiful day, and my tire quit here and not on the highway.

2:12pm: Short Update
Things have been crazy, to say the least, at the Knight house lately. We've been dealing with what we've been given, though it hasn't been easy. That said, the craziness prompted Jenny and me both to make some changes. My boss has finally given me a schedule that allows me to be home at night with my family. It's an adjustment, but it has been needed for a long time. Jenny has started work on getting a certificate in the medical assistant field, something she's wanted for a long time, but we've now been prompted to just step up and do. It'll mean a real, truly worthwhile job for her eventually, and perhaps will enable me to finally finish school myself in the near future. We'll see. There's a great deal to share, but I'm already out of time. More to come when possible.

- Aaron

7:47pm: Really exhausted but I can't sleep. Common symptom over last few days.

8:31pm: Pretty appropriate lyrics...
Tenth Avenue North
Hold My Heart

How long must I pray
Must I pray to You?
How long must I wait
Must I wait for You?

How long 'til I see Your face
See You shining through
I'm on my knees
Begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees Father
Will you turn to me

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart

One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart

I've been so afraid,
Afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way I'm done asking why
I'm on my knees Begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees Father, will you run to me

So many questions without answers
Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances
To hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

10:58am: Thanks to everybody who has been praying for us. Still can't say much, but the Knight family is going to survive. Long road ahead, but we've got the three things that always remain, which are faith, hope, and love.

Thanks everyone. Love you all.

- Aaron

8:18pm: Prayers...
I can't say much. Things are tough around the Knight household these days. I love you folks, and would appreciate all your prayers right now. Talk at you all later.

- Aaron

8:14pm: Jars of Clay
"Show Love"

Speak
And say the words that no one else will ever say
Love - love like the world we know is over in a day

I'm gonna show you love in every language
I'm gonna speak with words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

You're beautiful
And I am weakened by the force of your eyes
So shine bright
To separate the truth from the lies
I'm gonna show you love

I'm gonna show you love in every language
I'm gonna speak with words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

So tie me to a tree and let the smoke and ash collect
No, I won't regret to let love do what love will let
We can drown in mixed emotions or walk across an angry sea
This is the cost of being free

I'm gonna show you love in every language
I'm gonna speak with words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

5:06pm: Random conversation with Mel (takhisis)...
Participants:
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Aaron Knight, Mel Hynes

Messages:
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Aaron Knight: May for kittens! Yes, I'm a little slow. Good thing I didn't go and buy you one like I thought about doing...
Aaron Knight: Yay... Yay for kittens.
Aaron Knight: Not "may"
Aaron Knight: Cause that makes no sense...
Mel Hynes: Hee
Mel Hynes: Unless they were born then ;)
Aaron Knight: Stupid auto spelling corrector. Still hasn't learned context. But yes, they could be may kittens! That's what I meant all along!
Aaron Knight: Sings song
Aaron Knight: May is for kitties
Aaron Knight: That's good enough for me
Aaron Knight: /end Cookie Monster
Mel Hynes: Hahaha
Mel Hynes: Good save
Aaron Knight: Silliness saves the day!

11:30am: 6 Years!
Yesterday was my 6th wedding anniversary!

We're doing great!

It came at the end of a weekend that, well, to call it packed would be an understatement.

My sister got married Saturday at 1 p.m.  Note, I didn't get off work 'til 11, so, I had to run home, shower, throw on clothes, and somehow make it to my parents' house in time.  Somehow, it worked out.  I will give credit to my incredible wife, as she had all the kids ready to go, and we were literally able to get in the car and go right as soon as I was dressed.

The next day, Sunday, we celebrated Ian's birthday.  The boys had a blast, swimming in my parents' little pool, playing in their backyard, and generally living it up.  Ian opened some presents, ate some cake and ice cream, and just generally had a good party!

That left us with just the anniversary day itself, which wasn't really my idea of an ideal anniversary, so I booked us a little getaway next weekend.

Celebrating a week late is okay.  We're kind of used to going with the flow.

Write back if you can!  I kind of miss everyone!

8:15pm: Relational Thing...
( Musings... )

5:42am: Well Done...
Matthew 25: 14-28 tells the well known and often quoted parable of the talents.  In it Jesus used the story of three servants, two of whom were faithful with the wealth that their master gave them stewardship over, and were then rewarded, and one of whom was not, and was punished, to make a point about using whatever gifts you have wisely and with the purpose of gaining more for Him, no matter how great or small the initial gifts seem.

I want my life to be one worthy of the exclamation "Well done, good and faithful servant."

I think about these things at 5:45 a.m.

4:47pm: Little Love Note...
I don't know why the urge to write a quick note about this came over me so strongly right now, but it has, so here I am.  We all go through times in our lives that we can't seem to see our way out of.  There are times when we feel inadequate, unworthy, unlovable, unnecessary, even a burden on those we love and care for. 

I feel the need to say two things.  The first is this.  I've been there, more often than I like to admit.  I've experienced some pretty dark times.  I've done things I'm not proud of, said things I'm not proud of, experienced some pretty deep self loathing.  That's where the second thing comes in.  It often takes me a bit too long, stewing in the darkness of my own soul, but I finally stumble to my knees.  That's when I find that that's what I could have done from the very beginning.  I could have gone to my knees immediately, and immediately, the strength and serenity to walk on through the valley would have been mine.

Again, I don't really know why I felt compelled to write this short little love note tonight.  But if you are out there, stumbling through one of those dark valleys, I want you to know something.

You are not alone.  You can lean on me, if you want to.  I promise you that I will lean on God, and maybe, all together, we can get through whatever it is we're going through.


( Hold Me, Jesus )

12:09pm: The Vision...
So, back in 1999, a man by the name of Pete Greig in the UK was instrumental in starting a movement of prayer.  His idea was simply people praying, all the time, 24-7, prayer without ceasing.  (The movement is called, for obvious reasons, the 24-7 prayer movement.  Look it up online.)

He described what he was thinking about when he started the whole thing to someone who asked in this way.  (Some of you who know me have read this before.)

( The Vision )

I am posting this here again for a reason.  Look for an invitation to come from me in the next few weeks.  That's all I'll say for now.

4:42pm: Waiting for something...
I don't know what it is. There are some things on my mind to write, to open up some kind of discussion on, but something (and it's not just procrastination) keeps staying my hand.

It could just be the "old man" rising up in me again.

I don't know.

1:37pm: Reminder!
Hello all! Just wanted to throw a reminder out there that tomorrow we're inviting all of you to come over to our new home at around 4 p.m.! Message me with contact info and I'll send you our address and such. As Johnny Mayall often said, "You WILL be there!"

4:07pm: COME OVER!
So, I've told several people that I'm going to update on the general state of things at the Knight household. 

This is not that update. 

It is, however, an official invitation.  Not this coming Saturday, which is Easter weekend, but the following Saturday, my wife and I will be hosting a get together at our new home.  We are inviting anyone who wishes to come.  It wil be informal, no big deal, just a way of getting as many of our friends and loved ones as possible to show up together and hang out with us.  We will be providing pizza from the best pizza place I know of, Joe's Pizza, and non-alchoholic beverages.  (*HINT* Should you wish to bring alchoholic beverages of your own, we will not object.  *HINT*)

The time is tentatively set for things to get going at 4 p.m.  Once again, things will be informal, so come and go as you please.  Should you wish to know where I live, e-mail me and I will send you all my contact info.  My e-mail address is jgbasar AT hotmail DOT com.

Anyway, we love you all, and hope to see you there! 

P.S. All you folks in jconstantine 's Trinity game, you can't use that as an excuse.  I've already spoken with him, you see.  Since he plans to be at my house on that day, YOU MUST ALL BE THERE OR FACE MY WRATH!  *cherubic smile*

4:05pm: Just a Dresden reminder...


OUT TOMORROW! Give Butcher his due, folks!

6:04pm: Okay, so...
Going to try to keep this quick.  There are quite a few things on my mind, but I haven't been able to get back into the process of writing.  I think I need some actual conversation before I get back into the in depth style I once had.  Still, a quick update is in order.

The move last weekend went really well. My friend Dustin, my sister's fiance Michael, and my parents all pitched in to help.  I had literally just the day before been cleared to be back on my feet after a two week long battle with a leg infection, but nevertheless, I was able to fully commit myself.  We rocked the moving.  Despite the cold, despite the wet, we did it all in that one day.  I cannot thank Dustin, Michael, and my parents for helping us so much.  They were heroes, truly, and I am not saying that in jest.

The next day, Sunday, we skipped church due to exhaustion.  When we finally dragged ourselves out of bed, we spent the day organizing and cleaning.  Once again, we got an incredible amount of work done.  Suffice it to say, at this point, we are already done unpacking.

There's more, including a bunch of little battles that one finds when moving into a previously owned house, but I can't describe how blessed we are.  Now, to invite over company!  Well, you all heard me!  Come on over!

2:13pm: Long overdue update...
So...

It's been a long time.

Again.

I'm just going to jump right into it in outline format to keep from boring you with a long story.

- Still moving Saturday.  (Anybody able to help, let me know!)
- Have been overcoming a bad infection in my left leg.
- Lost two weeks worth of work due to said infection.
- Have been contacted out of the blue by a dear friend that I haven't heard from in literally years.
- Joshua turning 5 in exactly a week.
- Saw Watchmen last weekend.  I am still rather stunned. *drool*
- Favorite quote from said movie is a toss up between two.:
Rorschach: "You people don't understand. I'm not locked in here with you, you're locked in here with me!

The other quote that I love is one that I can't find an exact duplicate of on the web, but it's a fantastic scene where Dr. Manhattan realized that while he may not have once believed in miracles, after seeing into Silk Spectre II's past, he recognizes that just her very existence as herself is a miracle.  It made him believe in saving the human race again.  i loved that quote.

Anyway, there's so much more to tell, but I wanted to give you the bones of things that have been going on.

11:36am: Watchmen, anyone?

Understanding that mr_rubix  has previous plans, isanyone else up at all for going to see Watchmen tonight?  We haven't gone a group movie thing in a while, but I thought I'd ask.

Anyway, just thought I'd ask.  It's WATCHMEN after all.
 

10:28am: Request for help in a month...
Just making this one quick as possible.  To cut directly to the chase, I am beseeching my friends for their aid!  Way in advance, mind you, but still.  We at the Knight household are moving, hopefully for the last time this time, as Jenny and I have finally found a real house that fits our family.  It's gorgeous, and I'll post a link with pictures of it here at the end.  That being said, we won't be able to start moving 'til March 14, a Saturday, but I'm hoping that with this much notice that I can get some help this time.  We did it all by ourselves last time, and it was brutal.  We succeeded in cutting down on a lot of our junk last time we moved, so this time should be easier all around, but still, any help anyone can provide would be appreciated.  Once again, that's March 14th.  If anything changes, I'll let you know. Thanks, my people!

Some picture of the place that don't do it justice...

Edit: Turned money in yesterday.  Done deal, it is!  Our first house together!

2:33pm: What's going around?
It really seems like many people that are dear to me are just getting hit. Jobs, personal issues, money issues, physical issues, many people that I know are just really taking it on the chin right now.

Also, for the second day this week, I have been unable to work. This is bad.

We are going through the refiner's fire.

Something funny to note, though, apparently, at least according to her post edit, I am the final say on all things Christian.

bwahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

This is why I love takhisis . And all my friends, really.  I love my wife, desperately, and I am fully aware that my alien family is one that I am lucky to have.  I have not been the kind of friend/father/brother/son I like to be, lately, mostly due to work circumstances, but still.  It does this heart good to know that I still serve some sort of purpose.

We laugh in the face of sorrow.

2:22am: *sigh*
Just so you know, we're supposed to be on our way home by no later than 12 midnight. It's now 2:20 a.m., and the other drivers that we are supposed to get our trailers from haven't even shown up yet. This will set us behind FOR THE WHOLE WEEK.

2:12pm: Love from the truck...
I never do this, but today I felt like saying hello. Nothing special, really. Just, I miss you all, my friends, and I am intending to do my best to amend my almost constant state of "absent."

Aaron Knight, "Friend Emaritus."

I tire of that title. I can't promise consistency, but I can promise effort. Love you guys. I'm "feeling the distance."

9:06am: For a friend...
I've been listening to many different types of music lately.  I have to in order to keep my sanity on the road.  I download different stuff, try it out on my mp3 player/phone, see what I like.  Interestingly, I've sort of rediscovered a musician that I knew I liked previously, but had kind of allowed to drop out of my song rotation.  Jason Mraz has caught back on with me.  I heard his new album, "We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things," liked it a great deal, but then rediscovered some of his previous stuff as well.

I'm getting to the point, trust me.  One song in particular caught my attention, not because it has any real relevance to my own life, but because a friend is losing someone dear to him, not permanently maybe, but to distance, to choice, I suppose. There's a lyric in the bridge that says

"And it's okay if you have to go away
Oh just remember the telephones work both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
'Cause you and I both loved"

Here's a song, dedicated to that friend and his love.

Jason Mraz: "You and I Both Loved"